This video, found on the website for the San Francisco Globe, has me stunned. I'll freely admit that I tend to complain that life is too hard sometimes. I often find myself angry or depressed that I don't have a steady job, or any sort of income, or a place to call my own, or a girlfriend, or anything that is defined as "normal." Well, I went to the website following the link to a different video. And found this one in the suggestions. All I can say is, PRAISE GOD that I have what I have. Anytime you feel down or angry at the hand you've been dealt, just remember......it's not what you HAVE, simply how you look at it and what you do with it!

The link is here

I am constantly amazed by God. Time and again He is confirming that my season for healing has come. Not only has He provided the possibility of going to school, but He is placing people-specifically strong, Christian men, into my life so that they can begin mentoring me in the ways of being a man, and show me what that looks like. So today my video is by Laura Story, entitled, "Indescribable." The link is here. I hope you enjoy it! for me it expresses the fact that God is truly "indescribable!"

Here is another video for you, a Casting Crowns video called "Who am I?" It asks that most basic of questions: Who am I that the Creator of the universe cares for and loves me more than I love myself?
I hope this video speaks to you like it has to me!

Let me just say, God is awesome. He has been confirming over and over that this is my season to move forward. I fill out my FAFSA, and I'm eligible for around $15,000 in financial aid. I go to a bible study, and find an all natural replacement to the three medicines that I'm already taking. Plus it keep me sleeping like a rock. So I fully believe that this is my season to move forward, and to head for the highest goals.

Today finds me, once again, on YouTube (gotta love that site) and I found a video by K-LOVE of Chris Tomlin in their studios, performing a live, acoustic version of "Whom Shall I Fear". This song tells us that if God is for us, who can be against us?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVyqmb189AE

Another good one to listen to is the song "Words" by Hawk Nelson. Always remember, your tongue is the most dangerous instrument in your body. James 3:1-12 tells about this part of the body. The tongue can lift you up or tear you down, so be very, very careful.....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Nb9ufYEWG0

So I was on YouTube (again) and found this one by Phil Wickham, called "Carry My Soul". I'll let you decide what you think of it. But for me? It says that I have nothing to fear after death. Like, Phil says, I want to just run up to the Father and crawl up into His lap, forever.
The link:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=waQe2Bkpo8c 

What an awesome study we had last night at the Covington's! Thanks to Mrs. Caroline, we studied, in general, the fruits of the spirit.

Today, though, I find myself drawn to a song that is one I find speaks to me, saying that no matter what, Christ will always, always, love me, no matter what. The name if the song is "The Harlot" by Misty Edwards, from  the Kansas City International House of Prayer. Here's the link! (note: it's 19+ minutes, but so, so worth it!)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqrJumkmdv8

Today finds me waiting on the Lord. I have an incredible opportunity to go to get a certification in Medical Billing, but I must be patient and wait for approval from those who would pay for it. I was supposed to find out this time last week, but it is becoming more and more clear that the Lord is teaching me patience. It's not fun, especially in a world geared to instant gratification, and when you have lived that way much too long. But God never makes mistakes, and He knows what he is doing. So I must simply listen to Him and learn the lesson He is trying to teach me.

As I was watching some videos on Youtube, I was drown to one in particular. It's "Oceans" by Hillsong United. It's an awesome video, and the song itself is amazing. It tells me that I need to learn to trust God and just take a step of faith. Here's the link!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m_sWJQm2fs

Life. The greatest gift we have been given.
As I grow older, I look back and realize how many, many stupid mistakes I have made. I am the kind to beat myself up about things. But I also realize that we can not go around life being a victim. So this blog's intention is to help me learn to balance things and learn to live in the real world. I hope that if anyone is in a similar boat that it helps them

So. What to say? Well, life for me means making a difference. Actually DOING something to affect change. it doesn't have to be big, maybe just helping a kid with their homework. But at least they have been helped and you have made an impact on their lives. And that is why we are here, to help others and to live as Christ did. That is how Christ lived; he went to the least of these, the poor, the sick, the beggars, thieves, prostitutes, and other unsavory types some wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole. but they are the ones we have been called to go to.

Take my friend, for example. He's not only atheist, but he is proud of it (I think; never had the heart to ask). He firmly believes in the singularity, a point at which humans are supposed to merge with technology. The saddest part is that he wants ME to believe it too. I have talked with him many a time, and yet I  never seem to be able to convey to him that I don't believe that and that I am trying to build a firm foundation in Christ. All I want is to learn how to live for Christ in a practical way.

I have a sadness in my heart when I think of him, and the opportunities that I missed to share the gospel with him and hopefully help him find the Lord. But that day may never come. One thing I DO know is that we can not effectively move forward if we are continually looking back. So I suppose that hopefully I can, through the input of others, find a way to live for Christ in an unchristian world.

Whatever you do, do it for the Lord. If you follow His will, He will reward you.